No Apologies…

Happy Monday!  I would love to tell you I’m well rested and excited for the week but I’m not!  I covered a 12 hour night shift at work on the weekend, had an Epicure party, got our taxes done, had a ton of things to do and generally didn’t take any time to recharge! 

I’m hoping next weekend will be a bit different.  Friday night I have an Epicure party, Saturday is Epicure’s Big Buisness conference and also my Birthday!! But Sunday I’m keeping open for some quiet time!! 

So you’re probably wondering how my week went in terms of healthy living!  Well this morning I weighed myself and I’m down 2 pounds! I’m happy with that because I know slow and steady truly does get things done! 

My successes last week were definitely meal preping for my at work meals, increasing my water intake, and better portioning. 

I was challenged with eating on the weekend because I didn’t prep. As much as I’d like to wing the weekends I don’t think that’s an option for me.  I do best when I’ve thought things through and planned for my day.  I’m going to try preping lunches and breakfasts for the weekend Thursday night this week. 

I allowed myself a cheat snack on Friday and a cheat meal yesterday morning of pancakes and sausage. It was yummy. I’ve also been having 10 chocolate chips once a day to keep the cravings under control! So far so good!  I refuse to fully deny myself of the things I love because I know that will lead to a full on binge.  

I was happy to get in some good walks this past week and a few mini at home workouts. My goal is to get to the gym 3 times this week! I find getting to the gym since having Jacob is extremely tough for me but I acknowledge I need to make it a priority! 

I wore my Fitbit a few days last week and I truly hate how it rubs my wrist! I need to get a different band if I want to wear it frequently. 

I’ve included a few photos of my food choices and pictures from my walks! I’m trying to decide if I want to update daily or weekly!  So many choices! 

  
  

Here’s The Truth…

227 pounds. 

I said it. I wrote it. I own it. 

Mostly I want to change it. 

Last month I weighed myself and weighed 224 pounds. The number repeated itself in my head all day and the days following. I considered writing about that number but at some point I changed my mind. I ate well for a few days and then went right back to how it’s been for too long. 

I’ve never openly posted my weight. I’ve never openly told anyone “my numbers”. Last time I had a major lifestyle change I talked about how much I lost but never exactly where I started!  I was 228 pounds the day I walked into Weight watchers back in 2011. I lost over 50 pounds on that journey. 228 pounds… The heaviest I’ve ever been! Today I’m 1 pound below the heaviest I’ve ever been.  I let that sink in all day today. 

It’s time for a change. I want to change. I’m not even going to post my list of excuses about why I have gained weight. I am however going to tell you I have too much respect for my body and what it’s capable of to keep treating it this poorly! 

Those of you who follow my Instagram, blog, Facebook or who know me personally know the food you see is in fact the “healthy food” I eat.  It’s not even the baking I post that’s the issue. I honestly don’t eat 99% of what I bake. I give it away. What you don’t see is the chocolate.   You don’t see the double cheeseburger I grab (frequently) in the drive thru because I haven’t made healthy choices a priority.  

You don’t see the night time binge eating. 

I don’t have a hashtag for hey guys I ate an entire box of  Purdys…. Again! 

 I don’t share those things but it obvious as I continue to get bigger. 

My body deserves better than this. 

My body gave me a beautiful son and I want to have this under control before my poor habits damage his ability to know what healthy really means! 

My body (and my persistence) carried me across the finish line of a 1/2 marathon. 

My body carries me through my days and my life. 

My body truly deserves better and right now is the first minute of better! 

This isn’t just about the number on the scale. This is about so much more. It’s about finding myself, loving myself and treating myself the way I deserve to be treated. 

  

Peanut butter Banana Muffins

I love Epicure delivery days!! Especially when there is a new toy in the box for me!! Today I received my new silicone perfect portion muffin tray and of course had to take it for a test bake!! 

  
I wanted to use up some spotty bananas but also wanted a bit of nutrition! I came up with these delicious little numbers packed with extra goodness thanks to a couple of scoops of Epicure’s enhanced nutrition Cocoa crunch sprinkles! 

Ingredients 

  

  • 3 ripe bananas 
  • 1 cup white flour
  • 1 cup whole wheat flour
  • 1 tsp baking soda
  • 1/2 tsp baking powder
  • Pinch salt
  • 2 eggs
  • 1/4 cup butter
  • 1/4 cup peanut butter
  • 3/4 cup sugar
  • 1 tsp vanilla 
  • 2 tablespoons Epicure Cocoa crunch enhanced nutrition sprinkles 
  • 1/2 cup chocolate chips (optional) 

Method 

Preheat oven to 375 degrees 

In a large mixing bowl smash the bananas.  

 
Add butter, peanut butter, vanilla, eggs, and sugar. Combine well.  

 
In a separate bowl whisk together flours, baking soda, baking powder, and salt. 

Add dry ingredients to wet mixture and fold together until just combined.  

   
Once combined gently fold in Cocoa crunch sprinkles and chocolate chips if desired.  

 

Divide evenly in greased muffin tray and bake for 20 minutes until toothpick inserted cones out clean.  

 
  
Allow to cool on rack and enjoy! 

  

Peppermint Matcha Hot Chocolate Brownies! 

I was asked to create a treat for our Epicure team meeting tonight using this months customer special, Epicure’s delicious Peppermint matcha hot chocolate!!  This is what I created… 

 These brownies are chocolatey, chewy, and have a hint of mint!! I always feel like St. Patrick’s day is the perfect time for mint/chocolate treats! I’m sure Leprechauns love mint!  Anyways,  I made these brownies in Epicure’s Perfect petites pan but you could do them in a traditional pan if you don’t have the Perfect petites. If you ask me everyone should get the Perfect petites pan because it’s perfect for making adorable mini treats!!!  On to the recipe!  

Ingredients  

 

  • 1 cup butter – melted
  • 2 large eggs
  • 2 tablespoons egg whites (or an extra egg)
  • 2 tsp vanilla 
  • 1 cup sugar 
  • 1 cup flour 
  • 1/2 tsp baking powder
  • 1/8 tsp salt
  • 1/2 cup Epicure’s peppermint matcha hot chocolate mix (dry)
  • 3/4 cup chocolate chips (mint chocolate for a more minty taste)

Method

  • Preheat oven to 350 degrees 
  • In a mixing bowl combine melted butter, sugar, eggs, egg whites, and vanilla  
  • In a second bowl whisk together flour, baking powder and salt. 
  • Combine dry and wet ingredients and stir until just combined.  
  • Gently fold in hot chocolate mix and chocolate chips.    
  • Place petites pan on a cookie sheet. Using a basting brush lightly grease Perfect petites pan.  
  • Divide batter evenly     
  • Bake for 22-25 minutes until tooth pick inserted in centre comes out clean.   
  • Remove from pan and allow to cool on rack.   
  • Enjoy!    

Clean Living Buying Club! Veggies, Community, Health! 

I recently got the opportunity to take part in a new veggie buying collective organized by a lovely lady named Maria.  Maria has organized an awesome program so local families can pool their funds and buy organic, locally grown produce at a great price.  

 The veggie buying club is a fantastic  way for local community members to access fresh, healthy, organic produce while supporting local farms and keeping dollars in our own community and nearby communities. 

 I am excited to take part in this as it embraces supporting local farms, and eating healthy! Plus it brings together community members! All great things in my eyes.   

 The club currently offers two boxes, a 5 pound harvest and a 15 pound harvest box. Both boxes contain an assortment of veggies and herbs that will change with the growing seasons!  They also offer a juicing box. 

This weeks farmer and harvest boxes contained kale, chard, carrots, beets, a variety of potatoes, leeks, herbs, garlic and the option of wheatgrass add ons.  

 We have already eaten the white potatoes, carrots, and rainbow chard, All of which have been delicious, fresh and flavourful. 

Maria is in the process of getting more farms and local products involved! Hopefully soon the collective will have one stop access to local eggs, honey, seeds, etc.

I am throughly impressed that Maria has give up her own time and energy to bring something so amazing to her community. 

If you’re interested in taking part in the collective or just looking for more information check out The Clean Living Team website. 

A Fresh Start… 

As the first day of January in this brand new year winds down I thought I’d share my day and my thoughts with you! 

As some of you know I am taking part in Epicure’s new healthy living program Good food real results. Today was my kick off day! While I can’t share specific recipes and program material, I can show you what I’m eating these days!! I’ve decided that sharing my food and blogging more both things I want to do to help keep myself on track! 

My meals today have been healthy and delicious! Full of clean, whole ingredients.  

    
   
I’ve never been one to jump on the resolution bandwagon or get into that “New year, new me” mentality. However this year the things in my life just line up as January being a starting point. I don’t want to call these things I’m taking part in “resolutions”,  I see them more as goals, opportunites and experiences! 

One of my goals is more family time. We send lots of time together in general but I mean uninterrupted family time! No phones, no tv, no internet! Today my little family ventured to the duck pond to feed the ducks and go for a walk! Afterwards we had a quick visit with Grandpa and Grandma. Jacob was a big fan of both.  

    
 
Muffin didn’t come on our like family outing because she has an ear infection. Her and I did venture out for a walk this morning and discovered a little fairy garden in our neighborhood.  I love seeing thoughtful little things people do to make others smile.

 

The rest of my day has been pretty quiet. We took down the Christmas decorations, did some planning for the week and enjoyed the sunshine.

I hope everyone enjoyed the first day of the year. 

2015 The Year That Changed Everything! 

I’m not really sure where the year went. They say as you age time goes by faster. I must be 102 for how fast 2015 passed me bye! 

2015 changed my life forever! It was the year I was blessed with having my amazing son. He is the light of my life, my whole world, my everything.  

2015 taught me that I have to stand up for myself, love myself, and be prepared to walk away from those willing to hurt me. 

2015 reminded me family isn’t defined by bloodlines or marriage.

2015 proved to me that even the darkest cloud has a silver lining.

2015 provided me the opportunity to take risks and to be brave enough to say “why not”. 

2015 solidified that I can do anything I put my mind to, even if the task is excruciating! 

2015 was the year that really opened my eyes. I became a mother, a 1/2 marathoner!  I felt emotions I never dreamed of. I learned what it feels like to love something more than life itself. To be willing to give up everything to protect something else. I let go of my belief in keeping the peace and doing things I don’t want to just to appease others. I trusted myself more than I ever have. I trusted my ability and my strength. 

I’m ready to take on 2016 with my little man by my side!! Let’s do this!!