I Promise I’m Still Cooking! 

No one told me becoming Mom would mean I have pretty much zero time to do anything but Mom and Work!!! 

I’m trying my best to find time saving tricks so I can get back to things I love and miss! Things like blogging, running, and having 10 seconds alone! 

So speaking of time saving…Recently Influenster sent me a few Club house organic spices to try! I was skeptical because as an Epicure rep I’m spoiled with and amazing pantry full of spices and meal helpers!  But I have to tell you I was surprised how easy the Chicken Kung Pao came together! It had an amazing aroma and looked beautiful! Only downside for us was it was very spicy!! I simply can’t handle that much spice because of my esophagus damage from pregnancy (thanks Jacob 😉 )

I’m definitely going to try the garlic chicken variety next!! I’ll keep you posted! 


Pumpkin Coconut Coffee Cake 

This isn’t my normal recipe post! Normally I have photos of each step. This time though is just the basics!! 

Fall can’t come soon enough!! Tonight I had to bake something pumpkin spice to get me through the craving! 


1 1/3 cups flour

3/4 cup white sugar

3 teaspoons baking powder 

Pinch of salt

1 1/2 teaspoons Epicure’s pumpkin pie spice

1/4 cup butter 

1 egg

3/4 cup pumpkin purée 

1/4 milk

1 egg

1 teaspoon vanilla 


1/4 cup brown sugar

1 teaspoon pumpkin pie spice

3 tablespoons coconut 

Whisk together dry ingredients.

Cut in butter until crumbly 

Make a well in the centre 

Mix together wet ingredients 
Gently fold wet into dry, mixing just enough to bring every together.

Place in greased 8×8 pan

Mix together brown sugar, coconut and pumpkin spice. Sprinkle over batter

Bake for 50 minutes in 350 degree oven 

It Could Have Been Me…

It could have been you. Anyone of us Mothers could be feeling the absolute heartbreak Melissa Graves is feeling right now.  The numbness, the regret, the blame, the devistation. 

None of us are immune to tragedy. None of us can see the future.  None of us know if the last hug or frustrated sigh over uneaten dinner will be the last. None of us know when our number is up. 

None of us are perfect parents. Not a single one of us can claim we have never taken our eyes off our child for a split second. Not a single parent alive can pretend that in a brief second, one horrible life changing second couldn’t destroy our lives and take our baby away forever. Because deep down we know it could it. Things happen. Horrible, unthinkable things…accidents happen. 

Accidents happen. Think about that for a second. Then remember why we don’t spend every second of our lives worrying about these unthinkable tragedies. We don’t because we can’t. We spend our lives trying our best to make happy, fun memories with our littles. Because we want them to live and enjoy life, even if those lives are short. We want to see their smiles and hear their giggles.

That is exactly what the Graves family was doing on a magical family trip before it all got taken away in one of those horrible life changing seconds. Please remember that before you cast doubt, point a finger of blame or claim this would never happen to your child!  Please be kind to parents who are facing horrible things, be kind to the family at the restaurant with the toddler melting down, be understanding to the Mom who can’t get her children to leave the playground without them screaming wildly. Just be kind.

Parenting is hard, it’s exhausting, it’s frustrating. Parenting is a full time job, it doesn’t stop because you’re on vacation and if it does stop you’d give your own life to bring it back. 

No Apologies…

Happy Monday!  I would love to tell you I’m well rested and excited for the week but I’m not!  I covered a 12 hour night shift at work on the weekend, had an Epicure party, got our taxes done, had a ton of things to do and generally didn’t take any time to recharge! 

I’m hoping next weekend will be a bit different.  Friday night I have an Epicure party, Saturday is Epicure’s Big Buisness conference and also my Birthday!! But Sunday I’m keeping open for some quiet time!! 

So you’re probably wondering how my week went in terms of healthy living!  Well this morning I weighed myself and I’m down 2 pounds! I’m happy with that because I know slow and steady truly does get things done! 

My successes last week were definitely meal preping for my at work meals, increasing my water intake, and better portioning. 

I was challenged with eating on the weekend because I didn’t prep. As much as I’d like to wing the weekends I don’t think that’s an option for me.  I do best when I’ve thought things through and planned for my day.  I’m going to try preping lunches and breakfasts for the weekend Thursday night this week. 

I allowed myself a cheat snack on Friday and a cheat meal yesterday morning of pancakes and sausage. It was yummy. I’ve also been having 10 chocolate chips once a day to keep the cravings under control! So far so good!  I refuse to fully deny myself of the things I love because I know that will lead to a full on binge.  

I was happy to get in some good walks this past week and a few mini at home workouts. My goal is to get to the gym 3 times this week! I find getting to the gym since having Jacob is extremely tough for me but I acknowledge I need to make it a priority! 

I wore my Fitbit a few days last week and I truly hate how it rubs my wrist! I need to get a different band if I want to wear it frequently. 

I’ve included a few photos of my food choices and pictures from my walks! I’m trying to decide if I want to update daily or weekly!  So many choices! 


Here’s The Truth…

227 pounds. 

I said it. I wrote it. I own it. 

Mostly I want to change it. 

Last month I weighed myself and weighed 224 pounds. The number repeated itself in my head all day and the days following. I considered writing about that number but at some point I changed my mind. I ate well for a few days and then went right back to how it’s been for too long. 

I’ve never openly posted my weight. I’ve never openly told anyone “my numbers”. Last time I had a major lifestyle change I talked about how much I lost but never exactly where I started!  I was 228 pounds the day I walked into Weight watchers back in 2011. I lost over 50 pounds on that journey. 228 pounds… The heaviest I’ve ever been! Today I’m 1 pound below the heaviest I’ve ever been.  I let that sink in all day today. 

It’s time for a change. I want to change. I’m not even going to post my list of excuses about why I have gained weight. I am however going to tell you I have too much respect for my body and what it’s capable of to keep treating it this poorly! 

Those of you who follow my Instagram, blog, Facebook or who know me personally know the food you see is in fact the “healthy food” I eat.  It’s not even the baking I post that’s the issue. I honestly don’t eat 99% of what I bake. I give it away. What you don’t see is the chocolate.   You don’t see the double cheeseburger I grab (frequently) in the drive thru because I haven’t made healthy choices a priority.  

You don’t see the night time binge eating. 

I don’t have a hashtag for hey guys I ate an entire box of  Purdys…. Again! 

 I don’t share those things but it obvious as I continue to get bigger. 

My body deserves better than this. 

My body gave me a beautiful son and I want to have this under control before my poor habits damage his ability to know what healthy really means! 

My body (and my persistence) carried me across the finish line of a 1/2 marathon. 

My body carries me through my days and my life. 

My body truly deserves better and right now is the first minute of better! 

This isn’t just about the number on the scale. This is about so much more. It’s about finding myself, loving myself and treating myself the way I deserve to be treated. 


Peanut butter Banana Muffins

I love Epicure delivery days!! Especially when there is a new toy in the box for me!! Today I received my new silicone perfect portion muffin tray and of course had to take it for a test bake!! 

I wanted to use up some spotty bananas but also wanted a bit of nutrition! I came up with these delicious little numbers packed with extra goodness thanks to a couple of scoops of Epicure’s enhanced nutrition Cocoa crunch sprinkles! 



  • 3 ripe bananas 
  • 1 cup white flour
  • 1 cup whole wheat flour
  • 1 tsp baking soda
  • 1/2 tsp baking powder
  • Pinch salt
  • 2 eggs
  • 1/4 cup butter
  • 1/4 cup peanut butter
  • 3/4 cup sugar
  • 1 tsp vanilla 
  • 2 tablespoons Epicure Cocoa crunch enhanced nutrition sprinkles 
  • 1/2 cup chocolate chips (optional) 


Preheat oven to 375 degrees 

In a large mixing bowl smash the bananas.  

Add butter, peanut butter, vanilla, eggs, and sugar. Combine well.  

In a separate bowl whisk together flours, baking soda, baking powder, and salt. 

Add dry ingredients to wet mixture and fold together until just combined.  

Once combined gently fold in Cocoa crunch sprinkles and chocolate chips if desired.  


Divide evenly in greased muffin tray and bake for 20 minutes until toothpick inserted cones out clean.  

Allow to cool on rack and enjoy! 


Peppermint Matcha Hot Chocolate Brownies! 

I was asked to create a treat for our Epicure team meeting tonight using this months customer special, Epicure’s delicious Peppermint matcha hot chocolate!!  This is what I created… 

 These brownies are chocolatey, chewy, and have a hint of mint!! I always feel like St. Patrick’s day is the perfect time for mint/chocolate treats! I’m sure Leprechauns love mint!  Anyways,  I made these brownies in Epicure’s Perfect petites pan but you could do them in a traditional pan if you don’t have the Perfect petites. If you ask me everyone should get the Perfect petites pan because it’s perfect for making adorable mini treats!!!  On to the recipe!  



  • 1 cup butter – melted
  • 2 large eggs
  • 2 tablespoons egg whites (or an extra egg)
  • 2 tsp vanilla 
  • 1 cup sugar 
  • 1 cup flour 
  • 1/2 tsp baking powder
  • 1/8 tsp salt
  • 1/2 cup Epicure’s peppermint matcha hot chocolate mix (dry)
  • 3/4 cup chocolate chips (mint chocolate for a more minty taste)


  • Preheat oven to 350 degrees 
  • In a mixing bowl combine melted butter, sugar, eggs, egg whites, and vanilla  
  • In a second bowl whisk together flour, baking powder and salt. 
  • Combine dry and wet ingredients and stir until just combined.  
  • Gently fold in hot chocolate mix and chocolate chips.    
  • Place petites pan on a cookie sheet. Using a basting brush lightly grease Perfect petites pan.  
  • Divide batter evenly     
  • Bake for 22-25 minutes until tooth pick inserted in centre comes out clean.   
  • Remove from pan and allow to cool on rack.   
  • Enjoy!